Juan Pablo Mobili
Despedirse, “to say goodbye”
Your ashes will weigh less than your skeleton
bones don’t blow in the wind like ashes do
they won’t float on the river or the ocean
but only sink and scare the fish.
My father stipulated his body should be burned,
then my mother told my brother she would be next,
Dying is a distinct kind of mathematics,
the heart also runs numbers:
the size of losses,
the lightness the body can attain through fire,
the distance to the edge facing the ocean
where the ashes will be scattered.
The fact is, souls, deep as they are, insist
on the simplicity of an abacus,
adding legacy and subtracting bodies,
calculating how long we say goodbye
before the water carries the ashes away.
I’m grateful for the dilapidated pier’s patience
with my mother walking to despedirse of my father,
to the waves that later reunited our parents,
and to the salt solicitous enough to negotiate
a truce with the law of gravity and help my father,
stay a little longer so we could say our words,
be grieving sons, begin to cry at equal intervals
with the precision of new orphans.